Construction

Several posts ago, I was talking about building blocks...

How do you know you're putting the right blocks on top of each other? ....

that's where the thought ends.... weird.. there was so much before that.. anyone.. another train has arrived.. hopefully I'll be able to ride this one for a while...

When building blocks.. you don't just build one structure.. Life is more of a collection of all these structures.. You might topple a structure (completely or partially), but still have all the others. The problem is knowing when to do that.. and when to rebuild it, or when to start building a completely new structure.

Hindi ko na kaya mag-isip pa... my brain seems to be working intermittently... I have to be able to type faster.. ah well.. I'm on dial-up now, since my broadband's shot... Maybe my brain works in parallel with my internet... *sigh* I wish life was as simple and easy as building blocks...

Could you really fall in love with two people at the same time?

*This is actually a reply to a post of one of my friends

weird? no not really... loving 2 people at the same time.. yeah romantic love.. is it possible? well, I've always thought of love as a two-part thing. the feeling and the choice. The feelings.. well.. there's the shady/gray part. What do we know about feelings? Nothing. We can't control them at all. They can be suppressed from seeing the light of day, sometimes you could fool yourself into thinking that you're feeling something else, but they are still there. In this way, you can love so many people. Although, some might also THINK that they are really in love with a lot of people, but the others are just infatuations or errr.. fake. True love, in this way, I think, never fades, it just mellows down sometimes.
The other part of love is the choice to love. There's always that choice. It's not that out loud choice that says: "I will love ___". It's that deep deep choice to love. To choose. This could be why some relationships fail- there was not enough choice, not enough resolve to go through. At the first sign of love mellowing down, as I said previously, some people think: "That's it, we're done. Goodbye." But if the choice is really made, and the resolve strong, then things will work out, given that both of them are like that, "It takes two to tango". It really sucks to see one of the partners truly in love, giving his/her life for the other person, while the other person is already gone..
but what happens when you've chosen to love someone, and start to feel something for someone else? what happens, when those feelings are love? Isn't this already loving 2 people? Well, yeah slightly. But when you're truly on the edge, you don't know which way to go.. stay with your current choice.. or choose to love that new person... that's confusing. You question everything that you feel, that you've felt, that you will feel. You re-evaluate your choice, think of the pros and cons... and in the end.. you still don't know what to do. I said before that love is a 2-part thing... in this case.. is it that you love two people at the same time? Or you don't love either? Well... I don't know...