Trickles....

Virtually nothing/no one gets in, and nothing gets out.. Just like water going through a minute crack in the wall. Except this time, the water doesn't corrode the wall, making the crack bigger. Or does it? And it just keeps on getting patched up again... That's me. Well, I think so anyway.

But then, maybe not... maybe I'm not like that... I was thinking about being real. You know, showing your true colors. Letting everything in and out, leaving my life an open book. Being real, being yourself, BEING. Fine, we all wear masks, but some are just thicker and more unreal than others. Am I being real? To the people I'm with? Or am I just showing another plastic mask, thicker than what people can see through? For some reason, I couldn't accept that. I knew that wasn't the case, and if it was, the mask wouldn't be as thick, nor would anyone not see through it. So what? So maybe I'm not being real even to myself... Emotions are not something I show, and I do feel them sometimes, they even show on occasion. But more often than not, I don't think I feel. Well, at a certain level anyway. The me that is REALLY me, doesn't feel. I just feel.. I don't know.. not numb.. I just don't feel. Maybe that's why I can't open up, I can't bare it all, I can't let it all out.. maybe because there's nothing there to begin with.. just some cold unfeeling rock.


Anyway, enough of my useless musings... I missed lunch today. I actually slept through it, and I have no idea why. I felt sleepy the whole day, even if I had enough during the weekend.. it's so odd...

And Darkness Engulfs Me...

No, this isn't a sad entry.. haha :)

Coron was FUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNN :) I had so much fun snorkeling and kayaking! :D Of course I had to wear a life jacket the whole time, but that's fine with me! haha :D

As usual, we stayed in the "Kubo sa Dagat". The house in the middle of the sea (well not exactly open sea because there were islands on almost all sides..). We used a boat to get around to various beaches, lakes, sunken ships etc.. :) This time around, the boat was quite nice and large and had the word "BAYWATCH" at the top of the "windshield" (is that still what it's called on a boat?). It was at our first stop that I snorkeled.. and it was nice :) So many fishies! such beautiful coral... :D All the rest of the time, I was kayaking. This is one of the two main reasons of my blackness (the other is the lack of sun block on my skin.. hehe). I kayaked (again) in a mini cave (a short tunnel actually) that goes underwater during high tide. At that place we saw a rather large jelly-fish (they said it might've been a portugese man-of-war). It was on the other side of the tunnel, and we were safe because we were on kayaks. It's a good thing though that when the jellyfish crossed the tunnel, we were already leaving. I wouldn't like to imagine what would've happened if one of us jumped into the water only to come face to face with that jellyfish. I also saw a LOT of sea urchins. My sister-in-law's bestfriend! hahah Best friend because when we went to batangas, she accidentally stepped on one (spikes.. ouch!). Wawa... anyway.. We also went to a hot spring before we left. And it was HOT :P Jumping in would be completely unthinkable! I eased my way into the pool in about 10 minutes I think.. we were all commenting one thing as we went it.. boiled eggs.. haha :D But it felt great once our bodies were acclimatized.. especially in the "waterfalls" part of the pool... :D It's a good thing that my burnt and charred body was still okay to deal with the heat.. :)

Going to and from coron, we road the super ferry again. The round trip is about 4k I think. The business class room is COOLLLD, esp since I had the bunk beside the aircon (both going AND coming back!).. brrrrrrr. It was fun taking pictures on the deck.. sarap pa ng hangin!

I can't wait to go back! :D Anyone want to join me? haha :D